This is not going to be a happy post. To be honest I’m sitting in the dark listening to music to get into a better mood but it’s not working. So here I am writing because it does give me a purpose and mostly something to do.
I know I wrote last time about maybe having a heart attack, well the good news is it wasn’t a heart attack. My blood is way to think with red cells and there was lots of big words mentioned which I would always nod like an idiot and make out I understood all the big words. I do know I’ve done so many test now it’s a matter of saying “what day is it and what test today?”
Today I went to a specialist on blood and all he done was scare the crap out of my wife Cheryl who was there to support me. You see he used big words too and really I had no idea what he was saying except him saying we’re rushing you in to have a Bone Marrow tomorrow morning and booking more tests on Friday and Monday. I don’t even know what they’re going to be doing except drilling a hole in one of my bones. “Hey I’ll be a Holy Man” you see writing helps. Haha
Hey before I get a whole lot of people call or text or email me about the Bone Marrow and what is going to happen, please don’t!! The way I see it, the doctor knows what he has to do and me well all I have to do is turn up and go to sleep. After I wake up they say what they did and then it’s too late. Not worrying about it because there’s nothing I can do about it. As long as I don’t come out a girl I’ll be fine. Haha. Another joke hey I’m doing better. Ha ha
Oh I have a huge WARNING. I’m not telling my daughter Jasmine anything about this because well really she’s only 9 years old and what’s the point of worrying her. So the WARNING is, please if you know her don’t mention anything because there’s no reason to upset or worry her. I wrote it twice so people would let it sink in.
I want to say I’m scared, not the operation, that’s out of my hands. I’m scared that if things go wrong or I don’t heal quickly or there’s more wrong, then what will happen? Will my family life fall apart again? Will I lose everything again? Then there’s the big one, is there a chance I become homeless again with nothing? I know I have a great wife and daughter but, well there’s always a but.
The Doctors can do whatever they want as long as I’m able to work and provide for my family as a working man. I know over the last two weeks I have worked two days because of my health, doing tests and money is already in a bad way. I need to get better quickly and work again.
I guess that’s why I help the homeless so much, because I know how easy it could happen and really if I was to be homeless again I would want to meet someone doing what I do to help me get on my feet again. I will never stop doing the BBQ’S and helping one on one because of this every reason.
Haha Now I know I won’t post this one.
What the heck. People want to read about Grant the Polite Guy being positive. Well here’s the truth, I’m always positive because I won’t face losing again because it’s a quick road down, but a long journey back.
Please wish me luck for tomorrow and for you I hope you have a great day. Remember the words “Homeless People” are “People” if you take away the “homeless” word.
Thank you for reading my blog and if I lose some readers because it’s a bit sad well I understand. I still wish you a good day.
Grant the Polite Guy.